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Good story from ESPN Boston on a 58 year old college pitcher who has not given up on his dream to play baseball.
SPRINGFIELD, Mass. -- The first week of the baseball season can be a time for veteran left-handers to work out the kinks. Last Monday,
48-year-old Barack Obama was high and outside with his presidential
first pitch before the Washington Nationals' opener. On Saturday,
47-year-old Jamie Moyer allowed five runs in the third inning to the
Houston Astros but held on for a 9-6 victory, the 259th of his career.
And on a sparkling Sunday afternoon, Larry Hasenfus gets loose.
A first-year student at Springfield College, Hasenfus warms up in the
right-field bullpen during the sixth inning of a JV baseball game
against Tufts. Throwing to 19-year-old freshman Geoff Sabbagh, he tries
to mix his fastball with two kinds of curve and his signature pitch: the
knuckleball. Having long ago memorized the beginning of T.S. Eliot's
"The Waste Land," he believes in "mixing memory with desire."
To Karen Hasenfus, sitting on the top row of the aluminum bleachers,
April does not seem at this moment to be the cruelest month. It is the
coolest. Larry's wife looks out at the bullpen, clutches the arm of her
sister-in-law Pat, and asks a one-word question: "Really?"
They understand the moment. They understand that Larry's return to the
mound -- and to college -- represents a triumphant remaking of a painful
Hasenfus' teammates, dealing with their own late-teen dramas, can't
understand that as deeply, but they still sense that something big is at
hand. They have watched Larry for months now, persevering through
preseason training that even they found arduous. Plus, he makes them
laugh. When they asked him about his three favorite things in the world,
he replied without hesitation: the intimate times with Karen, the
memories of his children being born, and picking off runners.
So it was no surprise that when he was sent out to the bullpen, the
dugout came alive with chatter: "Now's the time, Larry. Go get 'em,
seven. Here we go, Larry, Larry Kid."
Looking like some sepia-toned image from Ken Burns' movie studio, Larry
wipes the sweat from his handlebar mustache (a follicular time machine:
gray in the middle, reddening as it curls out to the sides). He then
swings both of his arms behind him, kicks his right leg in the air and
delivers the ball right into the catcher's target.
Larry is raring to go at age 58.
Growing up in the well-to-do Boston suburb of Newton, Larry dreamed of
being a college athlete. He was a fast-skating right winger on the ice
and a wily southpaw on the mound. College was always in his sights.
In Newton, he was surrounded in school by future doctors, lawyers and
teachers. His dad, John, a Boston College graduate, was one of the
Knights of Route 128, working for Raytheon and Sylvania. His late
mother, Mary, used to work at MIT for the legendary electrical
engineering professor Harold Edgerton. (In his basement in North
Brookfield, Larry still has one of Edgerton's stroboscopes, along with
numerous other artifacts, such his own second-grade report card -- which
notes his propensity for daydreaming -- and a baseball autographed by
another lefty knuckleballer from suburban Boston: Wilbur Wood.)
From a young age, Larry loved books. He liked the feel of the hard cover in his
hands, the mystery tucked within, the sense of possibility. In
elementary school, he always got excited on the days of the Scholastic
There was just one problem: He couldn't read.
Oh, he could recognize certain words and, as he now terms it, "say them
like a parrot -- without comprehension." When he came to a word that
didn't evoke a picture in his mind, though, everything would stop. He
would hover over the word like a helicopter, turning it, twisting it,
fastening onto it and refusing to let go.
Writing was also a formidable challenge. His handwriting was slow and
messy. In his mind, he was often jumping ahead six or seven words in the
sentence. It made no sense to him at all. He had struggled so much even
to memorize the alphabet, always using the song -- the one he says he
still has to rely on to this day.
He was labeled "lazy" and "stupid." Even his parents, whom he describes
as "trying everything they could to help," sometimes got exasperated.
They told him that he wasn't "applying himself."
In the backyard of his home, he used to pitch all the time to his
father, who also served as his Little League coach. Afterward, sometimes
the conversation turned to Larry's need to improve his performance in
the classroom. "It's not too late, Larry," his father would say. "It's
not too late."
Not surprisingly, he hated school. "It was terrible for me all along,"
he says. "I never understood what they wanted me to do -- or why."
When he was in school, his dyslexia was never identified (even after his
brother Jack, four years younger and with even more severe word
recognition problems, was diagnosed as a dyslexic in sixth grade). The
understanding of the broad spectrum of dyslexia was more limited back
then. Larry could, after all, identify some words.
What's more, he had developed masterful coping skills. He was unfailingly
polite. He was a good listener. He had a tremendous memory. When he
would recite the beginning of "The Waste Land" (a poem he admits he has
never read all the way through) or lines from Shakespeare, teachers and
classmates were snowed. "I'd find something that I thought was kind of
cool and slip it into the conversation from time to time," he says.
With a report card littered with C's and D's, he graduated from Newton
North High School in 1969. If that was a turbulent year to come of age,
it was also one filled with idealism. It was the year of Neil
Armstrong's one small step. It was the year of the Miracle Mets. In
August, Larry told his dad that he was going with some friends to a
music festival on a farm in New York.
"Why the sudden interest in music?" John asked.
"Dad," he said, "it's an event."
On the way back from Woodstock, when he was almost all the way to
Newton, he crashed his motorcycle, breaking his pitching arm, his hip
and his back. To this day he walks with a slight stoop.
Still, he kept his eyes on the prize of playing college sports. "That's
what he always saw himself doing," says his sister Pat.
Recovering quickly, he enrolled that fall for a year of prep school at
Tilton Academy in New Hampshire, a school whose motto is "the power of
potential." He starred on the hockey team and struck out 13 batters one
day on the diamond. He had no way of knowing in that fateful spring of
1970 that he would not pitch in another game for four decades.
The academic part of his life didn't go well. The preparation for
college work meant more demanding reading assignments and longer papers.
He was lost. When he arrived at St. Anselm College in Manchester, N.H.,
he was academically ineligible. He felt like an imposter. Soon he
failed out and vowed never -- never -- to return to college. Why would
Larry's sister Pat lives in a world of books. A librarian in
Breckenridge, Colo., who flew in last week in the hopes of seeing Larry
on the mound, Pat says Larry's dyslexia came with a certain gift.
"It's made him a very sympathetic and empathetic person," she says. "If
it came as easily to him as we would have hoped, he might not be the man
After St. Anselm, Larry gravitated toward social work. For years he worked with troubled kids at
the Newton Community Service Center. He had a radar for private pain
and a knack for putting people at ease. He listened. In time, he got his
second-level license as a social worker. (These days, you'd need a
master's degree to get the license, but thanks to earlier regulations
that allowed licensure based on field work, he was, as the saying goes,
It was at the community center that he met Karen. She was seven years
his elder and bubbling with life (as she still seems to be, her red hair
flowing from under the Springfield College cap as she sits in the
bleachers, her laughter filling the stands). She, too, was drawn to kids
and social work.
In time, they were married and built a log home in the central
Massachusetts town of North Brookfield, where they were determined to
raise their three children without a television. All three are now
college graduates (the eldest a social worker); all three are older than
Larry's pitching coach, Louie Bernardini.
It was, for years, a nice little life. There were family vacations,
including a memorable game of catch with his son, Nathaniel, at the
Field of Dreams in Iowa. There were jobs that they liked, Karen becoming
the clinical director at a school in Barre, Mass., working with
juvenile sex offenders, Larry working in personnel at a textile company
and ultimately becoming plant manager.
In North Brookfield, Larry became a pillar of the community. He was in
the Knights of Columbus. He won a term as a selectman. At St. Joseph's
Catholic Church, he occasionally pinch-hit for the priest, leading
weekday services for "my little old ladies and one old guy." (He had
coolly memorized Bible passages by listening to them in the car so he
wouldn't have to read and be exposed.) Everyone just assumed that Larry
had a college education. He didn't disabuse them of the notion.
He kept in shape by playing recreational hockey, something he continues
to do to this day. At home, he continued to cultivate his literary
collection. "He's always loved books," Karen says. "He's always kept
books from way back when, hoping that one day he'd be able to read them.
He just didn't have the key to unlock them."
At times, Karen would urge Larry to consider going back to college,
thinking he now could pull it off. Repeatedly, he batted the idea aside.
Two events in the few years turned Larry's life upside down. One was
going to a workshop on adult dyslexia, which he needed to attend in
order to maintain his social-work license. The presentation by Harvard
professor David Rose slapped him in the face. Karen recalls that when
Larry came home that day he said, "Oh my God, that really is me."
He began learning just how widespread his type of dyslexia is and what
sort of accommodations are now possible. Inwardly, he began to stir.
Then a couple of years ago, as the economy began to tumble, Hasenfus was
laid off by the textile firm after two decades of service. Closer to 60
than 50, he found himself unemployed.
He found out, though, that he was eligible for Trade Adjustment
Assistance, a U.S. Department of Labor program. It provided retraining
for workers who had lost jobs because of increased imports. The
government would pay for his education.
With great trepidation, Larry drove the 45 minutes to Springfield
College to find out about the School of Human Services, a weekend
program for adults. He brought pictures of himself with governors and
judges, hoping to offset the dark secrets contained in the sealed copy
of his academic transcript. When he met with the admissions director, he
handed her the envelope and said, "This might change everything."
To his relief and his horror, Larry was admitted. He was then introduced
to his adviser, Richard Andersen, a gray-goateed professor of writing
and literature. Larry poured out his anxiety. Andersen listened and
nodded, and told him to give it a shot. "You clearly have a lot to say,"
Andersen said. "Just write how you speak. Write from your heart."
Larry's son, Nathaniel, set him up with a voice-recognition software
program to help with his writing. Larry smiled and began speaking into
the microphone: "We the people of the United States, in order to form a
more perfect union, establish justice …"
The words appeared on the screen. "It was amazing to see," Larry said.
He would bring his books and articles home, and Karen would read them to
him. They talked about the material for hours on end.
When he got his first report card back in September, Larry could not
believe his eyes: straight A's.
Emboldened, he went into Andersen's office and asked him whether any
School of Human Services students ever participated in events with the
undergraduate students of the residential college. Andersen told him
that once in a great while a student from the school had acted in a play
"when they needed someone older."
Larry shook his head and said that wasn't what he meant. "I want to go
out for the baseball team," he said.
Andersen shared with him a quotation from Albert Einstein: "Only those
who attempt the absurd can achieve the impossible."
At the first meeting in January, Larry sat on the floor with about 70
baseball players, attracting one stare after another. Flashing back to
his first Little League tryout many moons ago in Newton, he felt "alone,
frightened and shy. It's so weird. It's supposed to be a fun kids'
game, and here I am at my age: I don't know anybody, I don't know where
to sit, I don't know where to go."
The indoor workouts from January to mid-March are a brutal culling of
the herd. Morning running and weightlifting typically begin at 6 a.m.
For Larry, that meant getting out the door by 5, hopping in his green
Honda Civic with well over 200,000 miles on it, and racing to campus. He
had never lifted a weight in his life.
Then he would head back home, only to return for an 8 p.m. indoor
practice. Springfield players and coaches largely expected Larry to come
to his senses and drop off within a week.
"We were in disbelief that this guy was coming to play on the team,"
said sophomore pitcher Jared Gidan. "We were taken aback: Why is he
At home, "the first couple of days he would just stagger in and fall on
the bed," Karen said. "I'd ask him, 'Larry, are you really, really sure
you want to do this?'"
Like Rocky Balboa getting up from another blast from Apollo Creed, he
would turn off the alarm and limp out to the Honda. On several
occasions, he was pulled over for speeding. What can you say to the
officer at 5:15 in the morning? So sorry, sir; I'm running late for
In time, the players had no choice but to be won over by Larry. They saw
him coming back again and again, going for it in a way they just had to
"We started hanging around him and saw that he was really trying, and
doing everything the way it's supposed to be done," Gidan said. "It just
showed that he really wanted to be there, that he loves the game, loves
being around it. My opinion completely changed -- he's really cool."
In solidarity, Gidan and two other Springfield pitchers began growing
mustaches, aiming for the Rollie Fingers/Larry Hasenfus look. Larry was
so taken with the gesture that he bought them mustache grooming kits,
complete with a comb and wax.
His pitching began to improve. What Louie Bernardini describes as his
"looping fastball" began to have some velocity on a downward plane. The
knuckler began to dance. The curve went from spinning to slightly
breaking. He generally threw strikes.
As the snow melted at home, Larry rigged up an old hockey net on its
side in the backyard, pulled his steel tape 60 feet, 6 inches, cut out a
two-by-four and drilled it into the ground for a pitcher's rubber. He
began tossing pitch after pitch into the net, Karen chuckling from
inside the house.
When he made the JV team, Larry called his 87-year-old father to share
"That's great," John said before pausing a moment. "Do you think there's
any chance you'll get called up to the varsity?"
In his first intrasquad appearance with the JV, Larry pitched a hitless
inning, walking one batter. Later that day, they handed out uniforms.
The coaches told the "older guys" they had first dibs. The sophomores
tore into the bin, and then Bernardini said: "Hey, what about Larry?
What uniform do you want?"
"You know, Coach, I'm just happy to have one. I don't care about the
numbers. You guys pick your numbers, and I'll just go last."
When Larry got the number 7, Bernardini said, "The Mick!"
Mickey Mantle made his debut in 1951 -- the year Larry was born.
Karen says that Larry's return to school and to the baseball diamond has
been "absolutely life-changing" for her husband. She went to one of the
first games up in New Hampshire and was struck by the affection that
clearly existed between her husband and the players. "The kids really
like him," she said. "It was so fun to see him with them. Plus, he
looked very cute in his uniform."
In the first few games, Larry kept the scorebook and often jogged after a
foul ball, jiggling it in his left hand all the way back to the dugout.
In truth, he was beginning to feel anxious about getting into a game.
He knew this was a one-shot deal. The School of Human Services had given
him a lot of credit for his professional work in the field, meaning
that he is in line to graduate this December. The brief JV season -- his
one and only -- would be over on the last day of April.
Last Thursday looked as though it might have been the day. Springfield
was trailing Franklin Pierce 8-0 going into the top of the ninth.
Richard Andersen sat in the stands, wearing a vintage 1914 jersey from
the Brooklyn Tip-Tops of the old Federal League. He was talking with Pat
Hasenfus, just in town from Colorado, hoping against hope. Larry was
sent down to warm up in the ninth inning. Freshman Jon Kuzaro put two
runners on base with two outs. Bernardini later said that with one more
baserunner, Larry would have gotten the call. On a borderline 2-and-2
pitch, Kuzaro was given a called third strike, eliciting a loud groan
On Sunday back at Springfield College, Andersen is stewing in class,
unable to get out for Larry's 1 p.m. game. Karen sits in the bleachers
in a pack of family. When Larry goes to warm up in the sixth inning, the
crowd comes alive. In the seventh with two outs, a runner on second,
and Tufts leading 5-1, Bernardini strolls to the mound and taps his left
Larry Hasenfus slowly jogs in from the bullpen.
"Now's the time, Larry. Go get 'em, seven. Here we go, Larry, Larry Kid."
Tufts' young coach, Brian Casey, looks out at the mound, trying to suppress his shock.
Karen puts her hand up against her face, peering over her fingertips.
In truth, Larry has a rough outing. On a 1-and-0 pitch, he hits the
first batter. The second hitter lines a single to center on a 1-and-0
pitch. Then Bernardini jogs out to the mound to summon Kuzaro from the
bullpen. As Larry is offered fist bumps from everyone on the bench, you
can hear the grumbling in the stands about a quick hook.
Afterward, Larry seems relieved, discouraged and determined all at once.
"I would have liked to get a couple of guys out," he says. "It just
wasn't in the cards today. But I'm going to keep working at it and see
The next day, Larry gets right back on the horse, pitching the ninth
inning in a loss to Western New England College. He allows a run but
records the first three outs of his college career. Who knows what else
might happen in this glorious month of April? Perhaps he'll get another
chance Wednesday. That will be essentially a home game for Larry at
Quinsigamond Community College in Worcester, not far from the log home
with the hockey net in the backyard.
After he goes to court, hoping to fend off one of those speeding
tickets, Larry will head over to the ballpark. He'll be ready to play
Marty Dobrow teaches journalism at Springfield College. His book, "Knocking on Heaven's Door:
Six Minor Leaguers in Search of the Baseball Dream" (UMass Press) is
due out later this year.